Name- Maria | Sign- I am the cusp of Aquarius/Pisces | Describe your cat in one word- Hobbes is either fluffin or rapscallion (depending on how he's behaving at the moment) |
Its been so long since high school graduation and you look amazing, what have you been up to these past nine years?
Thanks lady! Wow, has it already been almost a decade?! The passage of time never ceases to amaze me.
You know...my story is very colorful. It's hard to just pick a point to begin from, because each part has played an integral role in who I am in this moment. In nine years, my life has completely transformed. I have grown immensely--spiritually. In my consciousness.
I've worked in the hospitality industry for the greater part of the past 7 years..that is how I support myself. But I've had so many jobs! At one point in time I worked in a hair salon..I was also a nanny for a couple of years. I've worked in bakeries and a discount store in the neighborhood I grew up in.. I remember being 20 and having 5 jobs at one time. I've always had that hustle gene.. I started working when I was 13. In my freshman year of college in South Carolina, I was an art model. It was the only job I could have, because it was on campus and I didn't have a car. (I loved that job) And when I moved back to Brooklyn in 2007, I took another semester or two of college, but I made the decision to stop going. It became draining, swimming upstream with all of the other fish. For me it felt directionless. I lacked focus. I've never felt education to be a linear process. We all learn so differently...how can we possibly, at such an explorative age, be that definitive and committed to a curriculum we aren't choosing ourselves? I don't know. I had an ah-ha! moment my sophomore year and it was the right decision for me, to take a break. Re-assess. Education in my eyes, is not meant to be industrial. Yet somehow, it is one of the largest industries in America. It's not that I'm opposed to secondary education, I think that education is incredibly important in the progress of our evolution, personal and as a collective, I just don't believe that the only way to lead a successful life is to become indebted to an institution that is supposed to (in theory) be giving you the luxurious freedom (and promise) of a better future. It seems counter-intuitive. I am however, considering enrolling in a class or two next winter, because I have more of an understanding now, of what I want to accomplish in my life, and what credentials will help me achieve these goals. On a spiritual level---I can't even tell you who I am. The truthful answer is that I do not know. The woman I am today is somebody that I have never met before; I learn something new about her everyday. But I really, really like her.
I've been through a lot of shit. Some self-inflicted, some not. It's taken time to reach this level of, awareness, forgiveness, acceptance...love. For myself and for others. I spent a lot of time coasting in a dark place, and I made a home down there. In the past few years, I have met some of the most wonderfully creative and nurturing beings. People who opened my soul to experience what it means to just, be. No judgments, no regrets, no mistakes.
Everything we endure is part of a greater journey. I'm hoping to continue this trajectory. I've put in a lot of time and an unquantifiable amount of work to let go of what no longer serves me from my past, in order to make room for the beauty and energy and light that fill me. The past 7 months alone have been the most poignant in my life up to this point. I've spent the past nine years learning how to become grateful, how to allow myself to be vulnerable... how to embrace the myriad experiences of what it means to be human.